Day #idont know

It seems I have fell off the face of the earth....it also seems like I am going around in circles. I am so confused ....anxiety.... Panic attacks....depression. I just want to crawl into my little hole and disappear for a while.


I will try to continue with my Pilates program and start over with day 1 tomorrow. As they say ...get back on the horse that threw you.

I never really understood that...if anyone has ever suffered from anxiety, panic attacks, or depression... I don't think they would be saying suck it up buttercup. We know life is hard but I believe that it helps for me to write my feelings out to who ever sees and just maybe I will be a help to just one person. So from now on I am only doing one 30 day challenge at a time. I think that was part of my issue I was trying to do too much at one time.

For instance ibwas doing 30 days of clean eating, 30 days of Pilates, 30 days of no caffeine... All in the same thirty days.

Crazy... I know I sound crazy but it really helps to write this all down


Bye

Day 2...so beyond sore

Okay so day 2 went better than day onbas far as food went.  This is my lunch....

I done day 2 of Pilates and I so wanted to quit about ten minutes into it...but I thougjed through. 

So far today it doesn't hurt to move so we shall see where this journey takes me.

Until tomorrow. 

Day 1---I know a day late post

So day one started out great...got my Pilates done...ate a good clean breakfast....

Oatmeal with nuts and raisins with some grapes. 

Then life happened...daughter wanted a cheeseburger for dinner so I fixed two...I ate mine on honey 7 grain bun. 

So far day 2 is going great.

Hopefully will post day 2 after work. 

10 months since last post...lots have changed

Well it has been ten months since my last part. Tons have changed.... Illness and weight gain. So tomorrow starts my 30 days of change... Clean eating lifestyle.  Currently weigh 175#.

The last time I weighed that much I was seven months pregnant... Over 7 yrs ago. I am currently on six medications.

I am also a girl scout leader to a great troop and I work 40+ hours a week. I know this is a lot and I am coping. I am planning on posting at the end of every day with pictures of my clean meals and my lose it #s.

Tomorrow is day #1.

Good night everyone.