Always in a hurry

 This is my new goal...after a mini breakdown and pity party...I have to learn to slow down. Yes I have lots of stuff going on in my life but I also need to enjoy stuff for me...before I have a stroke or something.

I can't even enjoy food anymore...it seems like all I do is hurry up and put it on the table to hurry up and eat it...just to move on to the next item.

So the new rule is to slow down and enjoy everything...I want to enjoy the sunrise/sunset with my family.  I want to enjoy cooking a meal again. And then enjoy eating it.

I am sick of hurry hurry hurry. So my new goal is lists for each day on stuff that has to been done...not stuff that I want to be done.

Because one of the thoughts that was running through my head was that it would be easier to walk away and start over then to stay and work anything out.  But then I realized that if I walk away that would not solve anything for me.

I'm gonna have to step back and recharge for a while...I am going to deal with what is on my plate and not add anything else.

I know I am not taking any use of my own advice...I am hoping that change is coming soon for me.

Your thoughts and prayers are greatly needed at this time...as it feels like I am drowning.